Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Neti's Gift

Just when I though we had a day too normal to blog about, 6-year-old Neti gave me something that I'll never forget. She's been a little bit cautious to make the connection with me as "Daddy". Not extremely slow - just slower than Meke. Maybe she feels the need to hang onto the Mom role she's played for little sis until we pass the "parent test".

Tonight it was as clear as ever. She's still a little girl who needs a Daddy.

If you've studied attachment in adoption you know that one of the most effective ways to connect with your kids is to lay down with them as they fall asleep. Tonight I did. Immediately, Meke grabbed me around the neck, gave me a big smile, and burrowed her face into my chest. This didn't surprise me. We connected on the long miserable plane ride home.

Within a few short minutes Meke's breathing got deeper and her little arm went limp. I carefully grabbed her little hand, lifted it slightly enough to slither out from under it without disturbing her innocent slumber. As I did, a somewhat larger hand somehow found mine and picked up where the smaller one left off. Neti had felt the bed move and reached over Meke's body to find me.

I shuffled to the other side of the bed and lay down next to Neti. She grabbed me around my neck with a grip that wouldn't let go before I could find a comfortable position on their pillowless bed (they don't like pillows). Pulling me every bit as close as Meke did, she let out an audible sigh. It was the first hug I've received from her that clearly said, "I need Daddy."

For at least thirty minutes I endured the most physically uncomfortable, yet emotionally rewarding hug I've ever had. As her breathing deepened and yet another arm fell limp I tried lifting Neti's arm from my neck. Just before the escape was complete she grabbed my hand with both arms and pulled it close to her chest, intertwining her fingers with mine. This time my position was even more uncomfortable than before. Half my body in bed and half out, for another 15 minutes I enjoyed simply being Daddy.

8 comments:

  1. Really enjoy reading about these significant moments--wow. You and Rhonda are certainly blessed. Wow. Did I saw 'wow' enough? Let the bonding continue!

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  2. I have tears in my eyes yet again (something that's been happening quite a bit over the past couple of week while reading your blog). Isn't the bonding great! Cherish these memories!

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  3. Wow, I can't wait to go get our little guy Elijah from the orphanage. GREAT blog site, kinda makes me feel like my try is pretty lame *laugh*. I can't wait to be a Dad for the first time when we go, and have the experiences you two are having. Thanks for the window into your family.

    Dave Duda
    http://thedudafamilyadoption.blogspot.com/

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  4. Aaaaaaaahhhhhhh, how precious!

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  5. Anonymous2:36 PM

    That is truly adorable!

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  6. Simply beautiful.

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  7. Anonymous11:50 AM

    Well, I know I have seen two little girls who love and adore their new Mama and Daddy and two older sissies. After what they have gone through, it speaks volumes that they have taken to you so quickly. I knew from day one that God was going to bless two yet unknown children with an amazing family. I've now seen that God has blessed 6 people with each other and created a whole new family. God is truly awesome -as are His faithful, obedient servants with hearts for each other and for Him.

    Thank you for sharing your love with me as well as each other.

    Tammy :)

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  8. Anonymous3:54 PM

    Beautiful!

    carol mom to ruth (6), masene (4 at layla), lillian (3), and safiya (2 at layla)

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